How the Hell Do I Feel

I  : Where the hell have you been all these days?

Me  : Haha.. All over the place man! You won’t believe my stories…

I  : The last I remember talking to you was a few months ago…

Me  : Yeah! Things have become a little crazy and I’ve started to look at life in a much different way..

I  : Like what yo?

Me  : I don’t feel the need to express my feelings…

I  : What the F#%$??? You used to tell me every damn thing man…

Me  : Seriously buddy… You gotta trust me. We tend to be too stupid and lead a very ordinary life when we feel the need to express our feeling or emotions to someone. What do we end up doing?

I  : We feel good yo! Like all the burdens are over… We move on!

Me  : Really? We only end up talking about our problems and successes to more and more people. That social need never ends.

I  : So?

Me  : Me decided to do something different. To make ‘Me’ the center of the world and make ‘My Feelings’ most important and made ‘My Perceptions’ more significant than others.

I  : You are a narcissist yo! You are obsessed with yourself now. That’s all there is to it!

Me  : Haha.. You ordinary person. I’m just self-sufficient and I’m the source of my emotions. Don’t you see it.. I’m not dependent on anyone for my emotional needs? What does this mean?

I  : I don’t know. I just think you’ve lost it yo!

Me  : Never mind fella. It just means that I can accept reality better and deal with my issues without falling on external comforts.

I: So, what now??

Me: Love myself, experience and enjoy every moment I live to the fullest… Good or bad, I can take it as is and all on my own…

I: I don’t know! I still can’t understand you…

Me: That’s the whole point! You needn’t understand me at all, buddy. The point is I’ve understood myself better and treasure my self-awareness!

I: Urgh!